Milestones

Cailyn has found her feet. She will lie on her back and just grab hold of them and let them have it. She is rolling over back to front and front to back now and is doing a very good job of sitting up alone already. She still for the most part needs to be steadied but all in all, she is doing great.

I was watching home movies earlier of Chayton when he was between 4 and 6 months. I call Cailyn my chunky monkey but he had more fat rolls than she does and I don't think he weighed as much then as she does now, at the same age. I just want to cry. Looking at him in the video's and now makes me wonder where the time has gone.

The video started out on January 22, 2004 and for a few moments I did have a little cry. It had just been a month since dad had passed away then. Sitting here right now and thinking about it, I cannot believe that it has been a little over 4 years since dad passed away. We may have had our differences and plenty of "BAD" moments over the years, but in the end, he was my daddy...still is, always will be and I forgave him long ago for the abuse. I love him and I miss him with all of my heart. He would absolutely love his grandbabies and they would be even more spoiled rotten then what they are now.

I know that mom misses Chayton most of all and that he has been her rock for the past 4 years, but he is only 4 and he needs to be a little boy sometimes. I know that it has been hard on her since we moved out, but it's not like I took the kids and moved back to California (which trust me, some days I would LOVE to move back there). We are only 12 miles away and she can visit us any time she wants to. It does kind of hurt that she doesn't stop by any more (she has only been here a handful of times and when my brother had his own place she was there ALL the time. Oh, well, maybe one day she will come and visit us to, just for the heck of it.